It all came back like that;

I was browsing dA's until I found a picture taken by a Jehovah witness, I won't give any name because no-one should be harassed or supported.

However,
sometimes burst into my chest when I did remind it once again.
I knew one of them, and didn't pay any special attention first..This person was one of my ex.
I heard these words from himself.."They saved my life". When he told me that, about three years ago. I stopped breathing for a sec.

A mentally-disturbed, weak and lost child, born of an alcoholic mother, a boy whose father's unknown. A boy who never really grew up like other children.
Turned into a soulless body.
I didn't understand it, first :
"Why didn't you want to celebrate Xmas ? and your very own B-day, why did you yell at me when I told you you had forgotten mine ?
Why can't you accept someone's else blood to heal you ?"

Now I get it all, I see HOW MUCH his hideous choice ruined OUR relationship.
How much I've been suffering.
And all that because I wouldn't obey his sect.
HOW MUCH he changed and turned freaky in a couple months. His cousin even tried to get me close to them.
When you really love someone and see them changing so quickly, you surely have doubts. And feel lost.
Later then, when we were using to talk again, I told him I was bi.

His only reply was something like "you should all die, mankind would die because of you".

I'm a witness of a desperate evolution, I mean I didn't only heard or know it all, I LIVED it.
So, what ? How can they still be regarded as an average religion ?
See what damage they're able to cause because of their intolerance.
Because I knew more than one, and more than one gave me the same impression,
because I believed I'd be regarded as something dirty, less-than-human, although I knew I was just following my very own faith: believing in myself, in my friends. My father let me believe in whatever I want, I admit I'm an Atheist.

THOUGH. I have nothing at ALL againsts religions. Only against sects, and even if the beliefs mentionned above are called a religion in several countries, in France it is still a sect.
However, they don't hide or else.
I saw some kind of house where they meet, when I was on holiday. And all that rage burried deep in my heart went out.


Then I am sorry, but my opinion is now stuck forever. That experience left a terrible scar in my mind, a scar I will never be able to cure.
Though my sweet girlfriend and my real friends know what I'm worth beyond appearances.

I needed to talk, I needed to write it as I cannot keep silent, as it still makes me so sad that I become helpess and cry.
Because, only..I wanted us to be happy..But something broke it all..
And now, the boy I loved so long ago became a narrow-minded, emotionless and self-conscious person.

I swear I am not lying when writing this, and not trying to change anyone's mind.
I just wanted to set it all free, sometimes..past is hard to handle, mostly when you have no-one to tell about it.